Sayangku

I'm missing you tonight .

You gotta ride life like you know it

I imagine myself walking down a quiet street. Lights dimmed , and the moonlight just enough to light up the place. I just wanna sit somewhere. Organizing these thoughts of mine. How it began? How will it end?


Sometimes it's hard to express,
This feeling inside,
Boiling over and over,
Like a lunar tide.

But I gotta keep my cool,
Learn a lil self control,
Knowing it'll not end well,
Paving my own road to hell.

Gone gone is the past,
But finally it haunts you at last,
Life's a never ending battle,
Only your own to settle.

Life is about dreams,
Dreams that take you places,
Hopefully this dream won't disappoint,
Been there , done that,
Shouldn't harbor any regrets.

* I need my old' friend back.

It'll play . Over. and Over. Again.

Dedicated to a very good friend, Adeline Bock.

Today, one of my besties will be leaving for the US. It finally hit me that it was time to say goodbye. Secret club will never be the same without you. sigh. I'll miss the drama, the craziness, and your "Cina-ness".

Bock Bock !!

I'll miss you :( Secret club will always be supporting you ! Have fun in Texas !! xx

Secret club

Our inside jokes too many to name,

When we're apart its never the same,

When we're together its nothing but fun,

Replacing my girls just can't be done.

Big girls don't cry

Was listening to "Big girls don't cry" by Fergie. And that brought back memories from first year. 

I remember praying that life would get better and what life would be like in 3 years

I remember calling happy goth in the wee morning and telling him how much life sucks. 

I remember telling myself how much I miss home

I remember telling myself I wasn't going to make it

I remember sulking in the corner , mending a broken heart

An every time I was hurting, this song would play on my laptop. And it's been ages since I've heard it since :) 

Everything happens for a reason. I'm glad I've learned the hard way. I'm thankful :) 

The beginning of something new

Am super excited to be moving up to Welly next year :) I guess, I'm sorta sick of long distance tho it's only been a year. Well, most of my friends would say "What long distance??!! " cause Tim visits so often, and I go up every alternate month. But then again, paying for flights ain't cheap ,  searching for available dates , and making sure the other isn't too busy when I visit etc.. It's not really the same as having him stay in the same place.I sorta miss the spontaneity of just dropping by whenever I want, having lunch together , and the simple things.

Also, I'm excited to start working :) I'll be paying my dues (study loan) and taxes , which is never fun. But , I'll be earning for myself, and slowly making my mark in Welly. Might as well, since I'm planning to stay there long term anyways. Next on my list, is saving up for a nice cozy house, maybe near the beach *fingers crossed , and saving up for a car :)

Officially 23 :)

I'm officially 23. Feeling a lil old, but feeling very loved :)

Came out of my room to grab a midnight snack and found this on our dining table. From sis ~

Brand new 100% leather boots !! wee!!

And I found this in my post box the other day, from Ginny chan ~ so pweety ~ 

Eiffel tower in a jar :)

 Thank u so much ginny chan! 

From Welly to Dunners

Today Tim and I had Indian food just before going to the airport :) The curry from Curry Heaven was very heavenly indeed ! lol. It was the best mango chicken I've ever tasted :)

Then, it was time for me to go. If only I could stay a lil longer. The shuttle came and you know the rest. I was emoing through-out today, and took a few pictures to express my emoness. LOL , I know I shouldn't be cause I'm seeing Tim again tomorrow, but what can I say ~ I'm just emo that way. haha!! *loving word play

Coincidentally I was the same flight as Prav and Molly :) 

The biggest surprise for me was yet to come. As the plane touched down, I received a voice mail message from Taita Pharmacy. I called them back, and guess what... I GOT THE JOB!! yay!! I think my brain froze when she said "Would you like to be an intern for next year". Now , that's mind blowing. I think I stuttered at one point. LOL !! oh well, now I'm planning ahead for welly :) Thank you God, this is the best birthday present ever .

Life

This week, I've insulted so many people it's not even funny. It's hard to tell whose over 65 years old :( and they get offended when you ask them "sir, just wondering, are you over 65?" The usual response would be " Hell no! Do i look like over 65??! " and a very apologetic "Oh.. so sorry sir. It's so hard to tell nowadays" follows.

Thinking maybe we should have thought things through before we chose our research topic.

Life in the real world is hard. People aren't as friendly as they seem. Does it cost you that much to smile?

But it does have its good points though,
One guy whom I was interviewing, was telling me how he missed living in the farm, how his wife passed away in a car accident, how his daughter-in-law makes awesome baking, and we chatted for a very long time. Another was telling me how he used to stay in Thailand for a bit and visited Penang to play soccer with the Aussie boys, how he has been keeping in contact with his "lady friend" for 35 years (making her suffer for that long he says lol ) and they're  road tripping tomorrow. I love listening to stories like these. They make you think of life in general and where it might take you.

I guess mine is still on hold. My fingers are still crossed.

Simply paris

After standing in the cold for a few hours , trying to interview people for my electives project, I gave up and went to Simply Paris instead :) This is definitively one of my favorite cafes. Maybe I'm biased and I like everything that's associated with  my favorite city, HAHA  but oh wells ~

They sell a variety of breads too :)

My blueberry danish and lemon+honey+ginger drink :)

Tomorrow I shall try again, interviewing people . Hopefully this time, there will be more of them over 65 years which is  my target group for electives. *fingers crossed

Hope

Hope is when you wake up in the morning, with enough courage to face the day.
Hope is when you can accept rejection from multiple pharmacies and not give up.
Hope is when everything doesn't go your way, but somehow deep inside you feel its going to be okay.
Hope is when you know your loved ones are praying for you.
Hope is when you know God has it all planned out for you.

Hope is what will keep me going. Hope is what i'll be holding. Hope is what will take me to a better place. Hope is what that's worth the chase.

Worrier for the day

For the past weeks, I've been bogged down with my constant worrying. I come back from work, sit in the car/bus , and automatically start thinking what I did wrong or right at work today. Did I give the lady her prescription meds? Did I check for any subsidy issues? Was my advice too confusing? Could I have worded it differently? Was I friendly to the guy with the black coat?

And every time, Tim tells me not to worry and to keep praying. but how can I not worry? note to self : being a worrier is never good on a CV. but oh wells , I can't help it.

I should be the annoying asian, and be more gun ho at work. but that's out of comfort zone. sigh