Marriage blues

It's kinda scary  that every now and then when I'm on facebook , my mini-feed is filled with friends getting engaged or getting married ! My initial reaction is always " oh sh**t , I'm getting old "

Then I start facebook stalking their soon-to-be-spouses hahaha ! But I shall keep those comments to myself :)(aduh jie ning, macamlah you bagus sgt ~)

But then again, I find it scary cause I've reached that age , where marriage is no longer a fairy-tale or a dress-up make believe. It's the reality that's lurking somewhere . Soon, my friends will be having a family of their own and spending less time with their social cliques. Gah! I cant imagine being called mummy ? I still feel like a kid myself =.= *cringe

As much as I like to fantasize about getting married , what dress to wear, who will be my bridesmaid , my "theme" for the wedding, I guess I'm still not ready . It's not the commitment that I'm worried about, it's the less personal space , less mingling with the divas , less "freedom" ?