I realized I needed a goal to work.... and to continue working. I've figured out that I'm not the career type. My dream life would be to enjoy life in general doing random things... that exclude working. Im not lazy if that's what you're thinking ! I just cant be doing the same thing all the time. I would like to travel , I would like to be free to do what I want with no dead lines , no constraints. But is that even possible in real life? Unless you're super duper filthy rich I guess. I've always had this mentality that life is too short , maybe that's why sometimes I rush into things. But yeah.. I definitely need motivation to work.

Motivation #1 : To pass this freaking internship and get it over and done with
Motivation #2: By being paid, I'm able to provide for the family ( a better life) , being able to shower them with love etc
Motivation #3: To buy my first house and a better car
Motivation #4: In order to travel , I need money right? yeahh.. and so do a lot of other things.

Hmmm .. I really dont want to be caught up in the rat race. Do I have a choice?