Some days I just want bury myself in a hole and hide. I want to just stay there and have no social interaction whatsoever .
Today is sadly one of those days.

I've had so much on my mind lately. Been thinking of what ifs and what not.

I've been hurting so much for the past few months , I've just shoved my feelings out of the way , keeping them in a vault somewhere in my head. Life is definitely your greatest teacher. I guess I've learned to stop being so naive , so trusting  and go with your gut feeling. Should have done this 4 years ago.

I want to start living. Living recklessly , living like tomorrow is your last.

I've appreciated the people around me, appreciated work much more, appreciated me for being me . Am quite surprised with myself. Must admit I never knew I had that much strength .

Never live a life just to be with someone else. I expected more, expected the bare minimum , and was disappointed.

I tell myself -it could be worse- , but then .... it feels like I'm settling for less.