I'm a work in progress :)

This year in a nutshell has been an emotional roller coaster.

I had to deal with a few "demons" in my life , namely - insecurity, jealousy, and low self esteem.Most of em were issues from the past brought forward to the present. I was almost a wreck. Work helped me concentrate on others and not myself. And being in the health profession was perfect for that. I sympathized and empathized with my patients , listened to their sufferings ... which made  me think to myself , the problem I've got is nothing compared to someone suffering from terminal cancer etc.

Working out at home and in the gym helped me keep those thoughts at bay. It forced me to concentrate on the pain of working out , than the emotional pain.

I know I have much to build. Sadly, after a year , the feelings still come. I have my days where I know it was for the best (that it happened), and some days I feel like smashing somebody in the face.

Insecurity - comes hand in hand with my low self esteem. It's not as bad as that many years ago .

Have faith.