I will survive

Tim has moved back to Wellington. He moved back on Saturday. Helped him clean up the place :) and now its livable ! :)

sigh. the downside is , I'm feeling pweety lonely at home. I was so used cooking for TWO , now I've got to adapt again to cooking for ONE. SINGULAR . ONO. ALONE. ME

I know I know... We were doing long distance for a year , so this is like "sap sap water" rite? But during that one year , I went into defense mode and I hated that feeling. I tend to make myself numb to emotions, and just kick it aside , and be emotionless, and avoid lovey dovey movies, and avoid annoying couples in love , and you get my drift. Thank goodness I had sis and the girls. If not , I would have ended up insane.

Later this year , in August , Tim is gonna be going to Africa and New York. Total time away: 4 months. FOUR LONG DREADED FOREVER ALONE MONTHS !!!!!!!!!!

I'm being a lil over dramatic. but .. I sometimes feel like shouting at Tim's face --> dont leave me !! this distance is scary ! im scared! i've got no where to go!

Oh-my-goodness what have I become. I feel like that super clingy girlfriend on 9gag :(

I wasn't always like this . I swear.

My plan now , is not to go into defensive mode. cos that just sucks the life outta me. and I think it kills me a lil inside slowly. Hence my growing sarcasm , and indifferent feelings towards certain people's pain and sufferings.

I shall ... instead plan for something better. Join Pilates lessons, take violin lessons, read books (even if its as dodgy as 50 Shades), etc etc

All in all , the legacy of Jie Ning Choong , will live on. I will survive