SIX years ago I had my guard up . I was the "untouchable" , a hug-a-phob , and one that truly believed love never really existed , and marriage was just for convenience sake. I used to pity couples in love , thinking why would you put yourself in such a vulnerable state . "Poor souls" I thought. Love was just a figment of your imagination. Love only existed between God and His children bla bla.
Then , I met Tim. My whole belief system was taken over by this "thing". I hated it . I became the person I sympathized most. My mind went into panic mode - this guy would be my downfall !
Fast forward to the present , getting married in the next few months. To be honest , I'm still scared. I think constantly - what am I putting myself through. The relationship is not perfect, and never will be. And that's what I love most about it... How can this be? Being in love has never made me so vulnerable in my life , yet I feel this utmost peace . It's like I have this hidden strength tucked away somewhere , drawn out only in time of emergencies , which usually involve Tim and our relationship.
I can't really explain it. Back then , I wouldn't wish this upon anybody - being in love that is . But it is actually , not so bad.
Life is full of surprises .
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