Babies

So I've been thinking a lot about kids lately. But maybe it's cause I'm getting married soon.

I find most kids annoying , messy , living parasites and little minions. I can tolerate only a few , I can count them with my fingers . Mostly friends kids , and they're adorable ( on days that I visit anyways). I guess the pressure to have kids is starting to well up. Not from my parents , but partly society. I know .. I know.. who cares what society says !! - you say. But to be honest , it gets to me sometimes. The occasional " oooohhh you getting married, that's good! now you can start planning to have kids ".

Kids are a huge responsibility . They're not miniature puppies that you can tuck aside when times get rough. In fact , your kids will most likely be the next closest person to you besides your family or husband.

Kids , they're such a handful. I know friends who say " dont worry, it'll be different if it's your kids". I guess so . But they are lil parasites - they suck the life source out of u! and they manipulate your brain somehow that you don't even mind being sucked dry.

I do want to have kids. But not anytime soon. Mom says I'll never be ready. And when I do , it might be too late.

I want to work on myself first , I want to love my child as much as I love myself . I want my kid to live life to the fullest , to not inherit my fears and anxieties , to know that the world isn't such a bad place and it's all down to perspective , to not give up and keep fighting for what you believe in , that love cannot be bought and is such a sweet wonderful blessing. Life is to be lived , life is uncertain and not to be afraid to face tomorrow. That is what I want for my future child.

Who knows  when I'll have kids. He or She might take me by surprise .