Married

I've been married for 2 weeks . Nothing's changed I think . Still feels quite surreal. Tim and I were playing flux on the bed and he said " man , can you believe we're married ?" . I still pause before introducing TIm to strangers , I'll introduce him as boy friend by mistake instead of husband .

We've talked about kids . Most  likely will start a family in 3 years . Still there's so much to do . And I've only just reached this level of fitness . You can't do as much when you're pregnant . Also to spend more time as a married couple and not worry about whose turn it is to change nappies etc .

In terms of family dynamics . I feel my parents have let me go . I'm someone else's responsibility now ( in the Asian sense) . I'm still learning to set boundaries between my family and tim . I want to spend as much time as I can with both and not getting distracted by the other. Tim is now my new found family. His family is now my family . I'm still trying to grasp that fact , cause family is not some word you throw around . I'm working on loving his family and him , as much as I love my own .

Love is a crazy thing. And being in love is like a double edged sword. I think I've mentioned before how vulnerable I feel , yet I feel like I have the strength to conquer anything . Love ...